Its been over 6 months since I wrote an entry on my blog, so much has happened; good and bad.So I have tons of material. The site has changed a whole lot. IT LOOKS GREAT!!I need to play with it a little bit to get familiarized. Hope all my followers and fellow bloggers are doing good! I’ll be posting my official entry manana, for now HAPPY MONDAY!!!
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Some morning I wake up and I feel like I’m just walking on cloud 9. Everything comes effortlessly, I feel that little extra pep in my step but then there are mornings where I get up and I’m just dragging my feet. Lazy mode kicks in and I feel so blah but these are the days one must try the hardest to be happy. As I’ve gotten older I’ve realized only we can produce a good day, only we can turn a bad day into a good . Some day require more effort than others.
Today I woke up and had that feeling but I decided not to let it get to me, I look ed at myself in the mirror and stared for a little while, I didn’t like the way I was frowning at myself, now this is going to sound crazy but I smiled at myself and said today will be a great day. And so I went about my morning and before I knew I was in better spirits than I had woken up with.
History between two people, can be good or bad. I guess it depends on what you focus on. I love it when I sit down with a person I’ve known for years and we start to reminisce on all the times we shared together as a kid. I can say I can go on for hours. It brings a huge smile to my face knowing that the person I’ve shared memories is still around, rather it be a friend or partner, those memories are always cherished. For me its some kind of bond that unfortunately can’t be shared with others. Time can make or break a friendship and withstanding it (the good and bad memories) means so much, most people might not see it that way but I do. I love it!
I’ve made many mistakes in my life, done things for revenge, done things innocently, done things without thinking, and done good things for the wrong people, but when it’s all said and done the key word is I. I’ve put myself in every situation, its me to blame and no one else. I can’t be mad at anyone else for the consequences of most actions because I should have known better. Some consequences were inevitable even I my intentions were well but that’s life we make mistakes and the biggest lesson you can walk away with is knowing and accepting where you went wrong and trying not to ever make the same mistake twice. Some lesson hurt more than others. but lessons are lessons and we cant grow if we don’t have them.
Lately Ive been thinking long and hard about what keeps bring two people together time after time. Is it pure feelings? History? The good memories, even the bad one? Is it that either are unable to see each other with different people? Is it fear of starting over? Is the quote “If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it doesn’t, then it was never meant to be” really true? Is it destiny? Or is destiny being forced by accepting that phone calls or giving in? Is it a fear of finally letting go? Does holding on to old memories have anything to do with it? Does the notion of a fairy tale with that person make you vulnerable? Do the what-ifs have a say in it? The how comes? What is it?
I woke up not having any plans at all but its was such a fun day. We started our day at the park where my cousins was there doing a devotional. Here is Lalaloopsi on her devotional time. (Lalaloopsi is my youngest toy this month, she take it everywhere)
Later we came back home and did our nails.
After that it was off to shop for a New Years outfit. My little one had some birthday money to spend. So we were on the search for a new clothing item. We had so much fun trying on clothes and making funny faces in the dressing room.
I also found that my little one is such a bargain shopper, she found an outfit with shoes for $16. So proud of her lol. It was a good day!!
My beloved Pepi,
I hear all these stories about preteens misbehaving and going on a rebel rampage. I’m extremely proud that despite all the madness around you, you still haven’t gotten side tracked. You have a little attitude here and there but what girl doesn’t at given times. I look at you I cant believe that you were once that little baby that I carried. From the minute you were born I knew you’d be special, when most of my world was falling apart you always managed to make me smile, till this day you still do it. I admire that you works so hard at school, I admire how eager you are to be better at things. You are sweet and caring with an amazing thirst for knowledge. I learn something new every day with you. I’m honored to be your mother. Anyone who is a part of your life must feel as lucky as I do. I hope you continue on the right track, I know one day you’ll be as successful as you say you will. Keep up the good work my princess! THE WORLD IS YOURS!
P.S. I love you to the moon and back
Yesterday my Little one was trying to convince me that we needed to hire a butler. Now I don’t have the money to do that and maybe if I did I’d probably not but this kid had a good argument.
It was late night yesterday and I had forgotten to sit down with her so she could do her H.W. So as we are sitting on the table reading a book she says “Momma I’ve been thinking” Of course every mother knows that those words are not a good sign. So I asked her “what is it that you’ve been thinking of” She says “Momma I think we need a butler” She hugs me and continues ” it would be great to have one because he could do all me homework for me and clean my room, brush my teeth and hair.’ when I started looking at her like really? She started to make valuable points. She smiled and continued on. “Sometimes he can cook for us so that you wont have to. Think about it mom he could do all the things you do around the house and then you could only have fun with us aaalllll day! You wouldn’t be so tired all the time, because think about it mom you do a lot!” At that point I was sold, I saw myself laughing running around a spotless, fresh smelling house. But earth radioed in and My answer was a NO! Maybe when she grows up she can get one, and make him do all those things LOL
Its extremely hard to do both. We often forgive but rarely ever forget. When someone near and dear to our heart does something to hurt you, it’s really hard to erase the hurt. Because I’m a person that cant be mad a people for too long, I tend to forgive them and accept an apology if given but I always remember. No matter what I try many mind plays tricks on me and just as things are getting back to normal BAM!! I remember the hurt.
Can it be done? Can you let go of the feeling you felt during the time you were hurt? Does forgiving and forgetting really exist?
With the revolution of social media we have become less personal. We interact with people more through internet and text messages than we do in real life. No matter how hard we try it easier than actually picking out a greeting card or picking up the phone to call someone. I came upon this article and how the biggest distributor in greeting card was forced to close down a plant in Kansas due to the decrease in sales. Its estimated by Hallmark that greeting card purchases in U.S. has dropped from 6 billion to 5 billion annually. That’s crazy right??!!
A couple of weeks ago I took the time to give someone a thank you card for being so good to me. I can’t express how good it felt when I gave the card to the person and she told me how nobody really does that anymore. He gave me such a warm feeling in my heart. It’s extremely hard to do sometimes due to the extremely busy and crazy life we live but next time you want to send someone a card don’t email it,send it via mail or give it to them in person. I guarantee it will make you and the person receiving feel the sincerity of it.