Ive been a bit busy lately but its no excuse for not doing what I love the most. Everyday i sit down and start to write a post but somehow I cant get finished. I cant put my finger on what it could be but my writing has been a little off lately. I have over 15 post that sounds like crap, when i try to finish or read what Ive written so far I decide not to even bother to post. Has anyone experienced writers block or whatever it is that’s happening to me? I remember being able to sit and just write but its not flowing in as easy anymore.
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So my girlfriend and I went out for lunch yesterday and being as we are all moms and have no party stories to share we talk about parenting a life. Our kids are all approaching the teenage years. The top of conversation was the HPV vaccine. My friend was telling me how in the last visit to the doctor he handed her a pamphlet with the information and told her to think about and let her know if it was something she was interested in for the next visit. First of all I didn’t know that boys got vaccinated as well. It makes sense though because Men are carriers of HPV. We chatted some more and looked up a few links talking about the vaccines, she says she would look over it and decide later. My other friend already gave her daughter both doses requires but mine never got the second dose. This morning the friend that already gave her daughter both doses sent us a link on the dangers of the vaccine. I read it and couldn’t believe what I was reading. It was scary, especially the amount of girls who have died due to the side effects of the vaccine. It made me wonder how many other kids have this vaccine and if not what made you decided not to have your child vaccinated with the HPV vaccine?
My grandfather has Alzheimer and dementia. Occasionally he forgets things or people, or sometimes just stares at us. It makes me feel bad because all his life he was a very strong man. He was and is still constantly reading. He used to know Spanish, English and a dialect now he only knows Spanish. It sad to see a man who was so amazing spend his last few days not remember a thing. When my youngest was just born it took a few months for him to get past the question of the gender of my little one. It broke my heart but he eventually got past it. He may not be all there at times but I’m glad my kids got to send time with him and my grandmother. This disease has made him be a baby all over again. He can sit there and go at it like a 7-year-old with my daughter. Below is a picture of him looking at me while I was one my phone, he started at me for about 30 mins, i decided to take the picture because I wanted to capture this moment. I wonder what he was thinking?
I logged on to my Facebook sometime last week and I saw that one on my acquaintances on Facebook had shared a link. I love to read and fill my mind with all sorts of new things and I opened the browser to Forbes online and the article read 20 Things 20-Year-Olds Don’t Get. As I read one I wish I would have read this at my 18th birthday. It all things that would have knocked some sense into me. The author makes valid points that apply to any age. Check it out, I know you’ll think like I did and ask yourself why didn’t I stumble upon this earlier. Happy readings y’all.
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Monday I had jury duty and although I would have rather have been at work I was a little entertained with all the different people in one place. This is definitely a great place to people watch. As soon as I walked in a few people stood pout. I looked for the seat closest to the T.V and closest to the door. A man came in at the beginning and explained how our day would go and of course after he said what he said there was the few that asked stupid questions. things he had already covered and if they would have listened to him the first time they probably wouldn’t be asking him. All of a sudden some random lady started to scream because she didn’t call the number you are supposed to call and came in without being needed. She hollered and made a big fuss and when she noticed the whole room staring she scram at everyone to stop staring and proceed to what they were doing. People just looked at each other and laughed, couldn’t believe the lady’s balls. They soon called in the first 3 groups of jury pools. I sat for another 2 hours. I read a few chapters from my book and went online on my phone but quickly got tired. I looked around and noticed a girl in front of me with an iPad checking some guy out. Perfect I thought, people watching it is. She stared at the guy until he looked at, when he finally did she asked what he was listening to on him iPhone. She didn’t wait for him to answer and took the ear phones from his hand and inserted them in her ears. She nodded in approval and gave them back to the guy. It disgusted me to know that she was ok with inserting a complete stranger’s ear phone into her ears. She wanted his attention so bad and kept bothering him every 5 mins, he didn’t seem interested but I guess felt bad to shrug her off. A few mins later he was called and believe it or not she followed him and handed him her number. God I thought how thirsty. We were dismissed to lunch shortly after.
After lunch I came back and the madness continued. I came in and took my same seat. As soon as I sat down a guy sat next to me and proceeded to ask me about the movie they were playing but before I could talk some random girl came to sit next to him and answered the question for me. I wasn’t interested one bit in this guy but it made me laugh how desperate this girl was looking. For the next hours we watched the movie that was being played and every time he would look at me and ask me a question about the movie she just interrupted and answered the question. Thankfully I was called shortly after.They gathered us in a group outside and said that too many people had been called for jury duty that day and that we were dismissed.I was home free!!!
Haven’t posted anything on here for the past week or so, my life has been so busy lately that I haven’t even had a chance to do what I love and have some ME time, to pick up a book and read. We got yet another new girl at work this week and this one I like and she’s fast. I’ve also recently discovered how evil some people can really be, not that I didn’t know but I always like to give people the benefit of the doubt. I got a new roommate to help me pay for rent because it was getting really hard for me to cover it now that I’m alone again. All my life I’ve lived with my mom or husband and kids and even thought he is family member it’s really hard to get used to someone else being around. I mean he doesn’t spend his days home and only come home to sleep but it’s still hard. I’ve been trying to improve myself in many ways, I want to learn to forgive , learn to make other people’s fight only theirs, not stick my nose in it and most of all spending more time with my girls.
Life has a way of making you see things clearly when all else seems to be falling apart. I must say I’m still a little hard broken and sometimes it feels like I wont bounce back but in time I know things will get better and I look forward to when I could feel happiness in my life again.
Now this might make me sound like such a nerd but I really don’t care, I absolutely love reading. Before the most recent purchase Sam’s Letters to Jennifer by James Patterson, I hadn’t picked up a book in a little over a month. I was beginning to feel like I was missing something in my life. I felt some type of void. It felt so good to have a book touch my fingers and to read page after page of words. I love taking on a book. I”m the type of person that becomes so attached to characters that they sometimes feel like real people in my life. I read for 30 mins during my lunch time and If I’m not too tired at night I read for as long as I could keep my eyes open before go to bed. As a kid I remember I hated to read but now I can’t imagine my life without a book in it.
Yesterday as I was on line during my early morning internet fix I started to read a post by a social media friend and I just couldn’t believe what I was reading. ;( Two acquaintances that I went to school with as a kid had gotten in to a terrible car accident while on vacation one died and the other is in critical condition. I didn’t really talk to them but a few times as a kid and never as an adult but we were friends on social media. It made me sad to think that such a young man’s life was cut short just like that.
Of course as anytime you hear about any life cut short it puts your own life into perspective, you start to dissect your life and how you live it. Sometimes we get caught up in meaningless things and just don’t do the things that make us happy or don’t make the the time to spend time with loved ones. My mother used to tell me that death doesn’t discriminate and the older I get the more I understand this. I try to do different things, spend a little time with those I love and I’m currently working on doing things that make me happy even if its just sitting around reading a book. Tomorrow is never promised so make today count.
Footnote: My heart and prayer go out to the families of the young ones affected by this tragedy, I hope the person who is in critical condition recovers soon. He still has a lot of things to accomplish in life.
My grandfather had a minor stroke a few weeks back that left him unable to walk properly and no smoking under his doctor’s orders. He was a man that used up most of his day either reading,watching T.V smoking or simply walking around. Now he is condemned to be home 24/7 and lets just say its taking a toll on him. He is becoming angry and acting up. My moms does her best to take him out but he just wants to walk around like he did before. He is getting really old and it hurts me to see him like that. I know he will eventually die and I want my girls to spend time with him but it seems quite impossible when he all he does is fight with them when they are around. I wonder what goes through his head, Ive tried the nice approached, explained how I want to spend time with him because I love him and it didn’t work. When I tried telling him that I want the girls to see him more before he dies he just got angrier and sent me to hell. I really have no idea how to make this work but I honestly don’t have the patience to deal with him in this state. My kids and work use up all the patience I have to offer.