Excuses and woman’s intuition

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My poor co-worker has been sick for the past two days. So I’ve been doing both mine and her job, so that explains why I haven’t been able to write any entries. It also doesn’t help that last night was the first night since Saturday night that I am able to sleep. I had a weird dream on Friday night and its been haunting me since. I’m a big believer that dreams tell you something. So of course I’ve been trying to figure out what it meant. I’ve always had dreams about situations that end up happening call it crazy but I like to think I have some sort of gift. Not that I can see things but I could sense thing when things are going to go wrong. Maybe its just my woman’s intuition that is heightened for some reason. So yes I’m kind of making excuses for not being able to write what else am I to than explain why I haven’t made the time to write. Sorry guys I’m really trying here 🙂

Sicky me

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It was bound to happen, with my co-worker, mom and kids being sick last week it was just a matter of time that I got sick too. I started to feel the effects of it Friday afternoon but it didn’t get really bad till Saturday night. My tonsils are horrible, they are so big you could see them by just looking at me, no need for me to open my mouth. The worst thing is that I’ve been having to come to work because we are super busy. I’ve been in a shitty mood and worst of all I’m in it by myself. Sometimes when I get sick I like to be babied. It sucks not having someone, like an adult to baby you. Luckily my little one is very attentive and kept asking me if I needed something to eat and if I was feeling better, she got me water and ran her fingers though her hair.

Yup these are my tonsils

Two sickies one mother

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I promised myself that I wouldn’t miss no more than a day of blogging but this week I slacked but with good reason. My week didn’t start off with rainbows and butterflies. Sunday I got into a huge fight with my ex husband and that just made me go to bed angry. We know what buttons to push on each other and that makes for a war of words. Monday was stressful at work and by the time I got home I had two sick children to worry about, they both came back from school sick with two totally different thing. The eldest had a cold and the little one had a stomach virus. I was up for most of the night and when the alarm went off I said “fuck this, I’m staying home” Good thing I did because they were sneezing, coughing and diarrhea for most of the morning. I made sure they got a lot of rest and nursed them back to semi health. Thankfully Wednesday they woke up feeling much better and was able to send them back to school. In all the years my children have been my children they have never gotten sick with two totally different things, it’s always one passes the sickness to the other and I could treat them with same medication. this time it drove me nuts. Hopefully this never happens again.

On that weirdo Shit

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As most may already know I have a daughter who is less than a year away from being a teen. I am extremely protective of her mainly because I got pregnant when I was 14 years old. now that I have a daughter I understand why my mother freaked out. I try really hard to steer her in the right direction, shelter her from stupid men or boys looking for that “thing” on that thing but I know the rest is up to her. She is as many young kids now a days very active in the social world. I make sure to check her social media once to twice a week. This weekend I was checking her followers on IG when I came across a guy who is my age. I know who he is and he’s the type of douche-bag that has a family yet likes all the girls pics. He is constantly commenting on other women’s page, like a single man would. I would say he steps out of line a bit. I know my face turned red and I was probably about to have a heart attack. What is a grown man doing requesting a 12-year-old on any social media and on top of that liking a picture of her in a bathing suit. It made me feel sick to my stomach because maybe his intention were not to get at her like that but with all the things happening this day in age it made me think the worst. I immediately took action,blocked him and asked my daughter not to ever approve a request like that. I got really made with her because she approved it knowing he is a grown man but it bothered me more that he took the time to go to her page and request her. I now understand my mother and how she was when I was a kid. Some men are just on that weirdo shit.

Fat girl breathing

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I’m sick again, I know it’s the 3rd month I get sick with the stupid cold. This is probably the worst one though. All last week my throat was feeling a little funny. It wasn’t enough to feel as though i had strep throat but It felt funny. Well On Saturday I woke up with a ball the size of grapes on both sizes of my neck, because of all the stress I’ve been going through the past couple of weeks I thought it was just a tensed up muscle. My mom and the girls massaged it and it felt good for the moment and later hurt more. So much that I had to call the 24 hour nurse to ask if it was normal. By the end of the night it felt hot to the tough and my whole neck was hurt bad, and i was having trouble swallowing. As per the nurses advice I decided to go to the ER there they found that my Lymph Nodes were swollen. Yes it sounds serious and I never heard of it but It’s normal for them to get like that when the body is fighting off an infection. Less than an hour I was on my merry way with an RX for Antibiotics.

Sunday I spent the day sleeping and resting with hopes of feeling better today. I curled up in my couch with my favorite covers and my comfy socks and watched a movie and relaxed.

Theses are my comfy socks, ya like?? And don’t mind the whiteness its winter for god sake

Today I feel worst, I thought relaxing might do the trick but I was wrong. Today (no offense to anyone) but I feel like a fat girl whose had to run a whole block. I my eyes are super glossy, I look like a stoner and my nose is super runny. I need this day to fly so I could go home.

M.I.A

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Last week was one crazy week I wasn’t able to gather my thought and write one sentence so many crazy things happened that my mind was going at 100 mph with no time to stop and think.

Monday was my first day back from a 3 week vacation which I kind so enjoyed because I was sick for 5 days out of the entire time. I did however get to spend time with my girls, it was amazing to sleep in late and play with them or watch movies all day. I only took 3 days to actually do a deep cleaning. So Monday at work was crazy I has 3656448 emails to answer and a bunch of To-Do stickies for me to take care of.

Tuesday was crazier than Monday because I had the workload from Monday that I wasn’t able to finish. Around 12 right when I was going to take my lunch I get a call from a family member that they were called by my mom’s work that she had fainted twice during school hours and wasn’t breathing. My heart dropped to the floor, i ran out of the office with all the work on my desk and drove like a maniac to her job. When I got there I was able to get information right away on what exactly had happened, I had to wait for what seemed like forever for the ambulance to open the doors and give me a 411 on there status of my mother. my mother is the lunch lady at my youngest school and it happened during lunch time so my little one saw the whole thing and thought her grandmother was dieing. Sh ewas scared to death. Thank fully it was nothing too crazy for the moment but I took my mother straight to her doctor, they are still doing exams to pin point the cause, I’m crossing my fingers that its not anything bad.

Wednesday was the first surgery day of the year at work (i work for a Lasik eye surgery center), that means lots and lots of work and patients to see, I did OT at work and  by the time I got home I was beat.

Thursday I woke up sick, my nose was running and my body ached a little, I thought it was just the stress from the days before but by noon I realized I had a cold.

Friday I got ready to go to work but I kept feeling cold. I soon realized i had a fever and called in sick. i was in bed all day sick as a dog.

Saturday and Sunday I was still on recovery mode. Nose was still running but I was feeling just a tad better.

Soooo yes that was my week and a full explanation for my followers on why i was M.I.A. Today I’m feeling a little better and going at life with a smile on my face and motivated to work.

It could always be mended

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bed, divorce, getting a divorce, heart, husband, life, love, marriage, sick, thinking place, time in the world, wander off, work out

Is it possible to die from a broken heart?? It kinda feels that way, it unexplainable. It hurts enough to feel like your whole body hurts and your mind can’t really function. You wander off more than usual and your bed kinda becomes your best thinking place. Lucky for me I have amazing people around me and it only felt bad for a few weeks. I’m not completely cured but I have been given the tools to help me get over it. My husband and I are getting a divorce, Yes that’s right!! It been a good run but things just didn’t work out. We are going our separate ways and it will be hard but at the end it will work out. I know it will! I am getting a little bit of withdrawal already just because he was the person I was with when I wasn’t working or sleeping. We were never perfect and I’m glad we weren’t because it taught me a lot about love and life. So as I see it, time with him wasn’t wasted, I take with my wonderful memories and learn from the bad ones. I’m OK with knowing that at one point in my life I had it all. I’m still young and I have all the time in the world to rebuild. No matter what though I still believe in love, I’m a helpless romantic at heart and no matter how bad it may seem at this moment I still have hope that forever exists.